Friday 21 October 2016

#MAMA

You had me feel the world
The breath you have created
Today more than usual
I want to be held in your arms
What is higher than anything above the ground
What is wider than anything beneath the sky
The only one, mother’s hand is medicine hand
You are forever my placebo
I love mom

Whenever I listen to songs like this
you raise me up
number 1 for me - maher zain
and many more songs about mother, how she changed your world

i feel small.
i'm not a good daughter
not becoming great person career-wise
or rich to support my mom

now she's sick
i'm taking care of her, but sadly i still make her sad at times
different opinion makes into misunderstanding and fight over trivial things
be patient, that's what people keep saying to you
easier said than done

she keep saying she loves me
i love her too, but i can't say it with honesty
for me, without pure intention and action, saying i love you will sound so fake

but still i said it, afraid i might never ever get the chance to utter that words again to her

ma,
please be healthy soon
Allah,
give her healthiness and calmness to get through her sickness

get well soon, ma
i love you, i really do :'(


your forever childish daughter,
Hana


4 comments:

  1. @itsFaezah
    I've read it ! Its true that even though we express to our own mom that we love her .. we can't feel the sincerity and it sounds fake .. me myself nvr tell my mom that I love her with my own mouth .. I just tell her through messages .. it saddens me sometimes ... I feel you Kak Hana .. I wish all the best for your mom .. may Allah give the best health for your mom .. get well soon Kak Hana's mom .. you still hv a long journey to go I wish Allah gives the opportunity InsyaAllah .. smile and be happy :)) I read ths while listen to Awake and Lost and Mama ..

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  2. Aww! I'm really touched because of your message for your mother. Yes, sometimes we don't directly say I love you to our mother/parents, but I know it is only because we're shy. But I know, your Mom knows how much you love her. I'll pray for you and for your Mom's health.

    --By the way, I'm @Ms_Chivous in Twitter. ��

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  3. I read around 30 of your blog posts so far, and although they are all very creative and interesting to read, nothing has touched me as much as this post. I feel that I can related to this post the most, and that's what people want to feel when read something.
    We never realize what something means to someone until it is gone. My mother is not sick right now, but she may be when she gets older. Everyone, no matter how mature someone is, is so foolish when compared with the whole world - we are really nothing more than a speck of dust in the galaxy.
    We never realize how important a mother is to a daughter until she is gone. The irony of it is all so dryly amusing. When a mother is there, we never listen to anything she says, and it almost seems as if we are trying to go against our mother. But when she is gone, we realize all of our mistakes, and all the wrongs we have done in our lives. That is the biggest fault of any daughter.
    I wish the best for your mother. I hope that you will learn to love your mother more than before, and when she gets better, your relationship will be stronger than ever.
    To improve on your work, I think you can add more connections others can relate too. I do not know if that's what you are trying to do. However, when people are usually more interested if they feel they can personally connections to the text. All in all, it was a beautiful post.
    Twitter ID (@btsislovelife13)

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  4. I cried.. i know im way too late but gwrs, ka Hana's mom.. may Allah always beside you guys. I cried cz while reading this, i remember when my mom was sick. she couldnt move at all, the only thing she can do is scream bcz of the pain. idk why and where the pain is so i could only took a really good care of her. when i took care of her i always tried so hard not to shed my tears, to stay calm bcs i know if she saw me cries she'll be sad too and tell me not to worry too much, tell me that she'll be fine.. when she might be not. i really cant imagine if she leaves me that time but thankyou somuch Allah still give me a chance to be with her, to say that i love her. i admit that for me saying ily is kinda cringy but i still say that to her, to my family. cz well if i dont, when would it be? when will my cringy feeling gone? what if my cringy feeling gone when theyve gone too?:( okay so sorry for this sad aura and idk what to say abt jhope's song.. but it is a very great song, no lie. and i think ive said all abt jhope song cz ive talked abt mom and this song is abt mom so-😓
    and i really hope you and your mom, your family, and the whole moeslims in the world r happy, healthy, and stay positive! and today's lesson is; Dont forget to say ily to your family while u still got the chance! Yes?😊
    twt: plaaa_

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